FRESH START

So here you are again Monday Morning.    I have been looking forward to seeing you for most of last week.  You and I have a lot to get done today.   Time to step on the scale and face the music.  I haven't tracked anything for the past week and  I'm afraid the numbers don't lie.   According to the Weight Tracker I'm right back where I was almost 2 months ago!  :(   But I think/hope I have learned some valuable lessons along the way!

There’s going to be a third guest at our party, too… the  Lord himself, the causer of miracles.  

Please Lord, be my constant companion through this.  Influence me in making good decisions about my food and about my exercise.  Please let me not be bogged down by excuses.  I need to get this done once and for all, and my record speaks for itself –

I CANNOT DO THIS ALONE!   

Let me thank you in advance for being my constant companion Lord. 

A LOOK AHEAD

Okay, so that being said, I HAVE managed to accomplish something since 1999.  It’s taken me 12 long years (or short years, depending on which end of the telescope I’m looking through) to get from 275 to 205.  Now I have to keep going.  Last year I became a Grandma and lost my sweet Daddy both in the last 3 months of 2011.  Such joy followed by such sadness.  My heart went from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows.  But still I trudge ahead on this Weight Loss Highway.   Distractions are plenty but I have to keep making my health my main priority.  Blood work and blood pressure were both much better but there is still a lot of room for improvement.

Here is a picture of Jerry and I on our recent camping trip to Huntington Lake.   The camera sure doesn’t lie and I feel like I’ve made some real progress but I still have a long way to go.   Not stopping in Barstow when I can get all the way to Vegas!   It is still my ultimate goal to "weigh my birthday" (1/27).  

A LOOK BACK

So in reviewing the past and things I did right and things I did wrong, there is evidence that I have made SOME success... Back in January of 2006 when I recorded my weight at 252 I had already lost 23 pounds from this unbelievably awful 1999 vacation picture.  Can't believe I had unconsciously allowed myself to get up to 275! Thank God that not many people remember me at that weight. But sadly, most people in my life now have never seen me at less than 200 pounds!

I am resuming this journey with more conviction and determination than ever now. I am going to put MYSELF at the top of my priority list for a while and get this job done once and for all!

God Help Me! (pretty please?)

 

~SUCCESS~

What is it that makes it so elusive to some and come so easily to others?

Why do some people seem to have it all together – pictures off the camera and sorted into folders on the desktop, scrapbooking up to date, perfectly organized garage (Mark, you KNOW who you are!), closets neat and tidy – even the ones nobody ever sees, or the ones who get an idea in their head for a business they want to start, then before you know it they’re up and running, when the rest of us get it all together and forget where we left it.

Why is it that some people make a commitment to lose 25 pounds – and DO IT!  Work their way up to completing a marathon – and DO IT!  Decide to get their house in order – and DO IT!   And the rest of us (yours truly included) just dream about these things.   Is it drive?  Determination?  A definite plan of action?  Probably.  Or as in my case, DISTRACTIONS!

By recording my journey this time (my 101st new start on Weight Watchers) I hope to explore some of these issues and discover along the way where I have gone off course all those countless other times.

Since the passing of my sweet Daddy at the end of 2011, someone who seemed to always take some great care of himself, both physically and spiritually I have become acutely aware of how fragile and fleeting life is.  I don’t want to still be sitting on the sidelines in January of next year, making the same tired old New Year’s Resolutions.  I want to be a heck of a lot closer to my goal than I am today and a lot more physically fit!

Lord, please let me always remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that you and I can’t handle together!