I was thinking on Saturday about how many times I've picked myself up over these past several years, brushed myself off, and tried to continue down the weight loss highway, only to find myself walking down the SAME street with the SAME pot holes and falling in each and every darn time while hoping for different results... I know, I know, that's the definition of insanity. Well realizing that there are only FIVE weeks left in 2012 and facing the reality of yet ANOTHER year beginning with my weight over 200, I prayed EXTRA hard this time that between God and Dad they would help me with this struggle. I kept hearing God telling me "I've given you the tools but YOU have to be the one to take them out and use them!!!" I am so close to the 100's... I thought everything needed to be "perfect" before I could be successful at this game. Meanwhile I also kept hearing "If you fail to plan you plan to fail"... yep... story of my life!
Well all of that being said, and according to my math-wiz calculations (anyone who knows me knows that I am NOT a numbers person) as of Sunday there would be approximately FIVE weeks left until 2013. I decided then and there to challenge myself to an "End of the year reboot". I WILL get this portion of my journey behind me. I WILL be in the 100's as of 1/1/13 (possibly even by Christmas). Oh what a breath of fresh air that would be to start the new year out right!
My closet space here is so limited. I NEED to move out the things that won't fit me anymore (too big) so I can make room for cutesie-pie things in smaller sizes! I want to be able to shop in a regular store again... not depend on the size 5 and size 7 buyers for the major chains who have to pick out things for the 2X crowd! They may do alright for the big-uns on Rodeo Drive but in my price range (Wally World and even Kohl's) the selection is HORRIBLE!
So anyway, IT'S ON! As of this entry I am on week #1, day #5, and have tracked EVERYTHING. The thing that REALLY helped me mentally was switching my weigh day to Sunday... the calendar weeks start on Sunday and my weeks will too... besides, hopefully starting on The Lord's Day will give me an extra boost. The old way definitely wasn't working for me... by the time I would get to Sunday I wouldn't track ANYTHING... what was the use? I was already out of points! :( So I just pretty much had a FREE FOR ALL while hoping for the best by Monday morning. This way I start out on Sunday more conscious of the points I am consuming and making good choices during the rest of the week. I hope to get to Saturday with at least 20 flex points left for a weekend treat (use them or lose them) with a fresh start again on Sunday morning.
Thank you Lord for the gift of a new day and a new outlook on life.
